I do believe that everything in your life happens for a purpose, especially when you are claiming that you are a servant of God.

Well, actually, there are lot's of mystery, i claim it's a mystery because i am not pushing myself to do such thing, only i am finding out that i am doing this thing.

I met a special friend, his name is monty, well, he is a good friend..and also a Christian/pastor. he do have some things that reveal on me..and i am praying for him to fulfll his dreams, but actually upon praying for the things that he is wanting in his life, I found myself that i am reforming according to his dreams. That is really a mystery to me, i ask the Lord, Lord I am the one that is answer to the prayer of that man, is he also the answer on my prayer, why i am praying him to be my husband, why i am acting faithfully, surrendering myself into virtuous and left all of my ambition's and turns into something new?

talking about ambitions that I had, I wanna be a lawyer, I wanna be a tough woman, I wanna be a sophisticated, elegant, workaholic but then, since i found that guy, everything change. Since i knew that guy, the desire of my heart changes, for now, i do have that deep joy when i am thinking that i will serve the church, i will be a pastor's wife, i will be a simple housewife, helping and serving my God and my husband, actualy this is really amazes me,those things are the things that he is praying for.

For now, those things will serve as a vision, i don't know why, but the only thing that i am doing is aGod's blue print inmy life. I do go closer to God, talk to God, in my heart and in my mind everytime.

This is the first time i feel this kind of feeling, I know i am inlove..in God.. that is why.. for now..I am praying my future to God, I will hold into his whispers..into His calls... ad nothing to do but to follow what is God command. he is my great Capatain, my bestrfriend..my Lover.

I am giving myself 3 to 4 years to enjoy God's presence in my life as a single,.. and i do believe that this mystery feeling will be revealed in the right time. I am not in hurry because God knows the perfect time,..the things that i must to pay attention for now is completely surrendering my whole life, to be virtuous, to be faithful in the man..named monty(i don't know why) and to walk with Jesus..in my entirely life.