after the storm in my life and the unstoppable tears that flowed from my eyes from the past months....i reflected..realized my mistakes too...definitely its not a sin to love and be loved, we fought for our relationship but our families cant accept it, we were never married in spite that we always wanted too...we've decided to live together without the knot of marriage since our families cant accept our relationship.for 3 years we endured a lot of sacrifices skipping meals for 3-4 days but stil were happy we go to church and pray there.we found work too thats why somehow we manage to survive with our finances. BUt on the late 2009 i always gets sick so all of our savings ended up to the hosp bills and medicines.Finaly we both decided to go back to our families,and as usual our families worked hard to ensure that we wont be able to see each other..i cant blame my mom coz my mom got separated from papa shes financialy unstable only have money to serve food on the table.the family of takashi on the otherhand remove all the means of communications that we could possibly have,and to ensure that we wont be able to see each other they didnt give him money anymore(he cant even find a job since he has no means to look for jobs in the city) as i was reflecting i realized that i need to fix my life first, change should start on my own self. i only need a year to complete my course,i am aware that i wont be able to go back to school due to financial issues. A while ago i worshipped god and ask him to please bless me. I recieved a lot of job offers but i cant pursue it due to finanacial issues, im situated in the province.and basically the job offers that i recieved came from the city, the fare is quiete expensive i cant support it... right now all i wanted to do is help mommy and my 7 year old sis. and if god would spare me the chance to go back to the univ, i will complete my course. please help me god...