I started going to church little over one year ago.

I met someone who is in wheelchair.

I never met her before but i felt instant connection

and she was so familiar to me.

I heard she uesd to lead children's ministry , bible talk ,

women's devotional and etc. She was very active Christian.

But She developed problems in her brain.

She needs helps for daily life and difficulty to .............................

understand and talk.

We developed friendship, and her and her husband

call me " little sunshine".

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I pray for her healing . I truly pray for her fervently.

Everybody in the church pray for her too.

But her condition is not getting better in my eye.

One day I got really upset with God.

God, why don't you FIX her ?

You told us If two or more people agree in name of Jesus,

Father in heaven will do it for us.

That's you said, so just Fix her.

(You see I am only a new christian) .......

I shared my feeling to other mature Christian sisters

and they gave me good responses.

Yes, I understood what they were saying intellectually.

But I wasn't just feeling it.

I was still upset- really unhappy with God.

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One day, I was surfing internet.

I found the poem by chance(?).

"And God said NO".

written by Claudia M Welsz.

It says

I asked God to make my handicapped child whole,

and God said, "No".

He said her spirit is whole and her body is only

temporary.

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When I read this poem, my heart beat fast

and tears came out.

I said to myself,

I got it, God. I really got it.

Yes, she is obedient daughter and

She loves God with all her heart.

She never stop believing in God.

She has faith.

She doesn't need to be fixed.

Yap, that's right.

God, fixed me.

Praise God.

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