I haven't been on here in a while and I missed you and thought of you all (Hi Hope) a lot. I'm honestly hoping you get more positivity and hope out of my experience than anything. Glorify God!

I fell into a very dark time dealing with satan's tricks and hitting rock bottom, basically. I became very ill and in a lot of pain, sin and tempation which turned to fear. Lesson: Remember God is there! satan imitated Him again...

I almost gave up but my friends wouldn't let me. They helped strengthened my faith. I became so anxious I didn't want to talk to anyone. I finally had no choice to go to the ER and what a surprise and wake up call! My doctor was extremely compassionate and to me that meant a lot. I'm happy to say my health is getting better.

My family began to push me away. I lost someone I loved a lot. I had 2 friends left. My boyfriend and most important, Christ. His faith is at times shaky but became stronger as well. Since everyone was taken away all I had was God and that was all I needed. I read scripture and talked to Him. We became closer. Of course, satan hates that (we know that!). He caught me again and my therapist of 5 years and I got into an argument and he refused to see me anymore. He didn't like bringing God up I think he questioned my sanity at times.

I ended up randomly looking through other therapists since I saw who I was hurting and saw how God was working in my life. I can't give up on His plan. I found a guy (or God did..) and called him. I thought "Why not?". I expected him to be harsh and criticizing but guess what? He was amazingly compassionate, optimistic and listened.  I saw a Bible on his desk and it caught my attention. I asked him about it. He had studied at a semenary before practicing! He knows Christ?? This was so knew to me. We began putting faith and God into this. He even found a support group for me.  He recommeded I read 1 John. I must have given him a shocked look because he laughed. I'm not used to this like I said but I could get used to it haha.

My lesson? never doubt the Lord. I forget that a lot >.< at least He reminds me.

Today I'm becoming more social and learning to overcome my anxiety. I've also met a lot of people in my situation and worse who have taught me so much. I guess it was all a blessing in disguise. Like Natalie Grant sang (been listened to Held) "can we not wait for one hour watching for our Savior?" 

God bless you all and lots of love,

Christy