Oh so responsibly I have create a detailed budget sheet in the last couple of weeks. I was quite proud of myself, as I have never look at Excell never mind try and make something of it. But out comes a complicated template of the lext 8 months; cells all link, actual monthy budgets, actual costs and estimate costs, actual savings and estimated savings, and yearly running totals. Yay me.

Now as I can see with October ending- as I have included with extra costs to my car, and my cats' absessed cheek and vet bill, I am running short for the new year. THATS OK.

I am resounding a firm praise God! now that all my needs will be provided for, as they have always been. I have done the responsible thing and chosen to keep track of my spending in detail so I will be accountable it. NOW I can wait on the Lord to ballance in all out. It will happen, and it will be ok. That was my promise.

It doesn't matter what is on paper two months from now, there is a whole lot of time in between for God to work His power. With the Lord I will never be short. This was a tempting opportunity to worry and scramble to figure out how I can make some extra money. If I didn't know God or trust Him so completely I might. But I wont. I will wait on the Lord, and take the opportunities He provides me with. Maybe He will provide my with financial opportunites, or maybe it will be a blessing. Because I am confident I am on God's narrow path and working as hard as I can to comeplete His purpose in my life, I will sit back and sigh in relief that my God has already thought ahead.

In the meantime I will also bless others when the opportunity arises- without worring about the money I lose in a blessing transaction. God wants us to give our finances to Him, and that mean reaching out with it for the Glory of God, and letting go of what you know you need- then trusting that more is coming to you through THE PLAN.

A few months ago, when I was in the mess of my turmoil comtemplating how I will ever survive financially on my own with my two kids, God taught me this: I didn't have any money and I had sold some accests in order to get some. At this point I had to pay to move, pay damage deposit, AND first months rent. These assest were enough to barely cover moving costs. In a moment trying to be self sustaining I took a bit of that money, put it in an envelope and put it away for a feeling of security measures. It was about a month later, maybe less, when God put it in my heart to give it away. I knew where I was supposed to give it but I wresled with the thought that I was giving up my security money. God was teaching me to give all financial control to Him. So it took me a little longer, as I wrestled, but I did eventually give it where I was asked. And I'm sure it was just in time for His plan in that situation.   

The worry was for nothing, as I did move, I did have damage deposit, I have been paying my rent on time every month- PRAISE GOD. How can this be? I'm a full time student and busy mom- I dont even work!

My point is: if I could trust God in the past, I can trust Him now, and trust Him with my future. He will not fail me. Ask me 8 months down the road how everything went- I'll be singing praises then, just as I am now. Have faith without doubt and watch it come to pass. Each time it will, it also serves to strengthen your faith. This is a good thing, since the closer you get to God and the more you lean on Him, the harder the enemy will work to destroy; Ha-ha desperate pathetic attempts!

Glory to God!