I was engaged to be married but I lost him due to me striking out at him.  I hate the people I work with as well because they meddled and interferred too much with my relationship.  Plus, he is apparently on some sort of medication that he took himself off of and now is behaving down right mean.  We aren't even speaking with each other.  I'm knew at being a Christian so I need understandment on how to go to Jesus and talk to him about my issues.