When the future's seems bleak and the hardships are at its peak

When you lose your will to fight and there's no end on the suffering in sight

When you are filled with sadness and being surrounded with dullness

When you lose all hope and darkness seemed to envelope

When friends and family desert you and your acquaintances mock you

Be still and fear not for the Lord will always be with you

So cast all your burdens upon Him for you will be filled with vim

So look up you who are downhearted for your spirit will surely be lifted

Worry not if you are dearth with wealth for He promised to supply you in great length

Put your faith in the Lord for He will never fail you

He will never desert you nor forsake you

So don't be troubled and take comfort for only He can calm you beyond that tumult 

Wait on the Lord and fix your eyes on Him

Trust in Him for He will surely deliver

When tribulations and trials come hold on to your faith in God

If you are filled with fear and your worries seemed unending

Be still and know that God is with you

When your bills are piling up and you don't have the means to pay them up

Remember that He is Jehovah-Jireh the provider of all our needs

When your future seemed uncertain and anxiety sets in

Never forget that He is with you

He will never forsake you

So be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer

March 27, 2013

   Well, I think i have to learn it the hard way. It's almost 17 years when i let myself fall into the traps of this world. I just turn my back from the Lord and let myself indulge on things which were detestable on His sight. What's worse there were times that i would mock Him with my words and with my actions. But all those times i felt that God was there calling for me, waiting for me to come back. Yet, i am stubborn and would not heed His call. Although, there were times in the past that hardships came like those times when i was sick and would call on Him and ask for His help but when i'm okay i suddenly forgot Him. All those times I know God never abandoned me but waiting for me. He waited for me a long time. I'm suddenly reminded about the Israelites of the times of Moses that even though God showed miracles and wonders in the sight of his people(remember the parting of the Red Sea) yet they continued on sinning and even have the gall to make an idol to worship. Yes, i'm like those israelites, that even though God has shown me good things but there was I making bad things.

  But February 19 came and everything just fell down. I lost my job. I felt that it's the end of the world. You see I'm a married man. I have three kids and i'm the only breadwinner so it's very difficult. Depression came. There were times suicide is the only option on my predicament. But through God's grace i am still alive and little by little my eyes were opened that this must be God's way of saying enough and come back to Him. And for the first time in years i  just fell down to my knees and ask for forgiveness to Him. I asked for His help because of my situation. It seems to me all my friends and family have turned their backs on me. (now I know how it feels when someone turn their backs on you). I asked for His deliverance. I prayed this time it's for keeps. 

  Yes, it's a struggle but somehow there's an inner peace in me. I know everything's gonna be alright. It's more than month that I don't have job but here we are still alive with God's grace. Looking back i asked myself what would have happened if i pushed thru with committing suicide? What will happen to my family? God has a plan. I often pray for spiritual strength, guidance and wisdom. Strength to resist the temptations of this world. Guidance so that  i will not be lost...again and wisdom to know and do His will. It's still a long,long way to go but this time is different. It's not gonna be bed of roses and everything may not be pleasant to me but hey it's a different ride when God is with me.

  The journey now begins....