The Lord's provisions are upon me. I am in the worst case scenerio I had imagined through all this... Literally! - AND I am at peace. Praise the Lord.

His goodness doesn't end for me. I am given the chance to grow up and grow closer. I think I would be justifed to despair. I have earned some tears of shame and frusteration. But they will not come. The peace and hope I feel is a greater experience than these hard times of life. I only pray I can make the right decisions... to do what is Holy.

Even in the midst of potential pain and suffering I am given chances to speak about God's love. My struggle continues to be a testament to the joy you can have in Jesus. There's nothing like that feeling. When you speak to someone with their doubts about God- when you would be justified to cry and beg for the suffering to end- and instead you are praising and boasting about the goodness of your God. God spoke through me today. I could not speak about Him as I might speak to you- unbeliever would not understand in that kind of depth. But I could speak the language of love, provision, and greatness of our God. Praise the Lord. It is the peace and strength of God that is driving me. It His goodness that I will never deny.

Thank-you Lord. I will boast in you, and be continually strengthed. Hope and trust is not easy. It is hard. Especially when what you have built falls apart in your hands. That's just it... it is what YOU have built that will crumble. When your way has been torn down, the Lord will build it according to His standards- Jesus is the ultimate carpenter who's work will never crumble.

Find a unjustified reason to boast in the Lord- and open your heart to the Spirit's work within you.