What does it mean to have faith? I attended church today for the first time in years. I've had a hard heart against it for a long time. What are these denominations that each church hides behind? I don't know what any of them mean, and I couldn't care less. If I'm not mistaken, Jesus did not call himself a Chirstian. He did not call him self babtist, or other cordinations of christianity.

I am a believer, plain and true. I do not think it is right for people, and churches to separate themselves according to what another denomination thinks. Whatever that is. A walk with Jesus is much more important than that.

I am reminded of a time Jesus was angry at a tree not bearing fruit. I bet He was hungry, and weary. I bet His feet were tired and He was aggravated by the disbelief He spoke against daily. I bet he felt as i do sometimes, when I want to shake someone into submission to God, because I know how powerful it is. Jesus cursed the tree, and it withered, never to produce again. Jesus is the ultimate projection of faith. Which church produces fruit? It is the people of the church that bear fruit? Walking into the new church today, the message was "all are welcome, come as you are", 'do not feel judged by us". but the fruit was so young.

I did not feel the Holy Spirit in the church today. I hope it was not judgemental of me to note that. There was an aire of 'show' and 'tell' that struck me s strange, being apart from a church for so long. But such good intentions were there. They wanted to be so welcoming and honest. But who are they being honest with, men or God?

I do not feel that church is necessairy. All these years, and more so recently, I have sought the Lord as He had asked. He asked me to gather together with believers. He asked me to seek the word. I may be a light in a church, but I am not a church. I am not a denimonation, I am not a show and tell worshiper. I didnt feel the power of worship today. I can whole heartedly sing praises, in the shower, during my house work. But there, I felt like there was a lack of the touch of God.

However, this mornign I was pulled strongly there. I heard God tell me "go, go today" I had 30 mins to go, and the time was now. I had heard of a new tent church in my area weeks ago, and it was in my heart since then. So in Faith, I packed up the baby and left, not knowing what was waiting for me. I got lost, and found a different church, but the pull to go inside wasn't there. It wasn't untill I found the church, when the timing became absolute. I may have something to offer this particular church I was looking for. 

This is a testament of Faith. Moving forward when you hear the call of God. You will know it because those with the Spirit can reconise the Spirit. The sheep can reconise the shepards voice.

Walk steady, because you are led by the one who knows your future, knows your struggle, and knows your heart. He has a path set out for you. If you can trust the Lord, you will find the peace He wants you to have. Never worry about what you will eat, or where you will work. I saw a broadcast on Tv the other day. He talked about a financial situation that he was trying to controll. Every other area that was in God's control flurished. The only part that saw financial red lines, was the one he worried about. So do not worry, when you put your faith in God, and let Him be fully in control of your direction and happiness you will be fulfilled. its a PROMISE, and God does NOT break His promises.

SOmetimes I forget not to worry, and I have to remind myself in every turn that I have put Him in Controll. The still waters he promises to lead you by means more when you accept the path He want to put you on, in His presence, under His wings, and by His waters. Do not try to control what you have put God in controll of, when you do you are at risk of veering from His path.

FAITH, faith means... do not worry. Do not greive. Do not forget that you are heading somewhere amazing. Believe. Know. Seek. rest your weary head, and sleep tonight knowing you are safe in the arms of the one who Loves you beyond measure.