More frustration
September 15, 2010 by The Powells
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Today I worked day shift for my mother in law. The day started off ok. I was in a good mood, I didnt feel rushed or out of place on a different shift that I never worked and with ppl that I never worked with. But then some one tells me that the DON had me scheduled to stay till 3 instead of 2. What? I have to pick my son up from the bus at 3 and we live 25 miles away, I cant stay. I tell the charge nurse and she says very rudely to me that it is not her problem and to to talk to the head nurses. There is one standing across the hall, I inform her and she said that she is not going to get involved and to talk to the DON. I cant find her, I ask if I can page her and I get a nasty look and told no, this is around 10 am.
Several hours go by, I am getting nervous because she is still no where to be seen, and I have to leave at 2 to get my son. I finaly find her, I inform her of the situation, she is not impressed. She tells me, "Well you said you wanted to come in at 7 not 6." I stated I asked you if I could work 7-2 and you said we would see so I assumed that ment no because you never got back to me and you seen me here at 6. I cant stay, I have to get my son. She says well if leaven at 2 is so important why are you telling me at 12:30? I tell her what the other nurses told me, she rolls her eyes and says we will see if I can find you coverage. I tell her that no matter what I am sorry I will be leaving at 2 for I have to get my daughter from my mom before she goes to work and I have to get my son off the bus, I will not let my 6 year old stay home alone for an hour. She is mad, probally didnt help that the day before I told her I was quiting if she didnt put me on the nurse in the next 2 weeks.
I made it home in time what a relief. I took my son to sign up for scouts after that. Still feel lost though. I dont know what I am doing so wrong that I cant find an LPN job. I was at the top of my class, busted my butt to get those grades and those clinical marks. What is so wrong? It is frustrating. Even the place you work for does not see your potential and neither does anyone else. Lots of others in my class are getting jobs, why cant I?
I check the phone and the email every day, several times a day hoping one called back, but still nothing several weeks. I called placed to confirm applications, either the person I need to talk to is never in or they tell me that it is still being processed..I have prayed so long and so hard I feel like it is a waste of time for nothing is happening.
I just hope that this cloud is lifted. I have waited so long for this rainbow, yet all I see is still the rain. Hopefully the sun comes out soon. I need to see the silver lining. I need to lift this burden, the satin and sinful feelings.
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adam Sep 15, 2010 at 11:28 pm Flag as inappropriate
You Are Not Going Under!!
Mark 4:35-41 On that day, when evening came, He said to them, "Let us go over to the other side." Leaving the crowd, they took Him along with them in the boat, just as He was; and other boats were with Him. And there arose a fierce gale of wind, and the waves were breaking over the boat so much that the boat was already filling up. Jesus Himself was in the stern, asleep on the cushion; and they woke Him and said to Him, "Teacher, do You not care that we are perishing?" And He got up and rebuked the wind and said to the sea, "Hush, be still." And the wind died down and it became perfectly calm. And He said to them, "Why are you afraid? Do you still have no faith?" They became very much afraid and said to one another, "Who then is this, that even the wind and the sea obey Him?"
Today I can tell you with confidence that if you are trusting the Lord in your situation, you will not go under. God has a divine purpose in what you are going through and will not allow you to go under. One of the hardest ways that we discover the purpose of God is through suffering and through trials.
James 1:2 "My brethren, count it all joy when ye fall into divers temptations. "
Isaiah 43: 2 "When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee."
In times of suffering we are able to say that should the Lord not do one more thing for us, we still thank Him simply for being God. What a time to be a witness to the worthiness of our Lord.
To clearly show that He is worthy of praise - not for what He does, but for who He is!
So do not be disheartened in your present situation... there is always a reason for everything that happens. It is up to us to live up to the calling of being a child of God, and to continue to serve the Lord with gladness, even in the midst of suffering.
God will be with you no matter what happens. He will see you through. God's goodness will provide and protect. God's mercy will pardon and forgive. God's goodness will supply. God's mercy will sooth. God's goodness will help. God's mercy will heal.
Exodus 15:11 "Who is like You, O LORD, among the gods? Who is like You, glorious in holiness, Fearful in praises, doing wonders?
Yes, what He has done for others, He will do for you. Trust Him today to do the impossible, you are in the palm of His hand. With God in the vessel you will not go under. With God, victory is inevitable.
copied from one of my marriage devotionals (doreens delights)
adam Sep 15, 2010 at 11:39 pm Flag as inappropriate
STANDING IN AGREEMENT WITH ADAM TO TRUST GOD TO DO THE IMPOSSIABLE IN YOUR LIFE IN JESUS NAME,THANK YOU FATHER FOR ALL BLESSINGS,MOVING THIS MOUNTAIN IN THE POWELL'S LIVES,ALL BLESSINGS,ANSWERS TO ALL OUR PRAYERS,AMEN!!
shay1111 Sep 15, 2010 at 11:57 pm Flag as inappropriate
Thank you all...Thank you Adam for the poems as well..It helps me knowing that others understand what I am going for and actually care. It so hard takling to ppl around you, for they really know you and you are afraid of judgment..Once again thank you all for your thoughts and prayers....GOD BLESS
The Powells Sep 16, 2010 at 12:33 am Flag as inappropriate
your welcome and i hope it blesses you, i read your journal and you are so thourough or good at explaining your feelings i am touched at the depth of them. i had just read it a while ago and was sitting here thinking in my mind what i would write and it was freeing as i thought about puoring my heart out then the emotion of it hit me and was unable to do it but i have a different perspective now of a womans heart, thank you.
adam Sep 16, 2010 at 12:58 am Flag as inappropriate
PRAYING GOD WILL CONTINUE TO BLESS YOU AND YOURS IN JESUS NAME,AMEN!!
shay1111 Sep 17, 2010 at 12:26 am Flag as inappropriate
I feel that I am me when I write...I can say how I feel and be who I am with out the fear of judgement...for I guess in the end you can just go ahead and hit the delete button..But when you speek how you really feel ppl can choice not to listen or change your words around. This way what you really said is out there, they can choice to see it or not and if you go back and look at what you wrote before you hit send then you get that second chance to think before you speak.
The Powells Sep 20, 2010 at 11:53 am Flag as inappropriate
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Father God i pray Lord inn the name of jesus for breakthrough for this person and that you will show her your glory and love and fill her with your love and peace. help her to see what is hindering her prayers and to overcome it. bless her and her home, open her husband eyes also to see what he can do to help his wife get through this difficult time and for them to stand together. amen
adam Sep 15, 2010 at 11:21 pm Flag as inappropriate