Monday 5th Sept video inspired me to try again to give up smoking tobacco. my comments just having my last smoke Yahshua is for me and not against me

September 5, 2022 by Michelle   Comments (4)

Only ONE Hunger Shall Satisfy - JESUS - YouTube




Shalom just watching again, your encouraging me to give up tobacco so much, I have really bad memory problems through street and psychiatric drugs and obviously also the enemy of all Christians satan is always fighting to make us forget. Your title and your lecture remind me of this great truth from the Christian author of Narnia where Aslan is the Lion of Judah, C.S. Lewis he said - if you find yourself with a desire that nothing in this world will satisfy, the most probable explanation is that you were made for another world. I'm so sick and tired of the lukewarm attitude of me and many Christians. Yahshua delivered me from heroin miraculously before He started reaching out to me in relationship, I thought I was in Messiah but i was just having schitzophrenic delusions of granduer. Now it is real, I have been struggling hard for the last year or so and it has been a fight but like you often say it is meant to be a struggle sometimes we can't always just expect someone to lay hands on us and we are instantly transformed although I do believe that happens occassionally. I have had all the things in this world, sex and drugs and rock and roll as the song goes and it just left me empty and more dead, it is so addictive but it never truly satisfies you keep going back for more chasing the high of that first crack pipe but its just illusions and deception. I have had experiences with the Ruach HaKodesh and while it leaves me wanting more it also satisfies. I will allow the Truth to consume me, it hurts especially being shown the evil in my own heart but now I am getting past that and seeing the new heart I am getting like often promised in the Bible, being born again. I want die to myself die to my own desire be poured out and emptied buried and dead in concrete not a shallow grave that keeps rearing it empty ugly . head. I want go all out and not backslide anymore. Yahshua heart is breaking because of people like me. Nothing else in this world matters I spend all my time now doing Christian things all i care about is my Christian music of all genres, my Bible, I don't watch tv i only listen to Christian things on YouTube I have moments of great passion then I have a tobacco smoke and it all changes. No more He is worth so much more it's all or nothing time for me I can see whats coming, I believe your dreams about troops on american soil and aliens it's not the first report I have heard. More divine power to you and may the Ruach draw more people to your channel we really need to hear you, it's soul food.
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yes brother, keep talking about hell. I do too I often testify to the truth of the Psalm that says - Great is Your Mercy Adonai and You have delivered my soul from the lowest hell. I truly believe my soul was there while my body was here, I don't care who believes or doesn't I'm not sure exactly how it works but I have had the tormenting voices of schitzophrenia which is demon possession 24/7 I have felt the torture on my body. Just like the book of Isaiah says true believers are seated in heavenly places. Not only do these satan accuse us to the Father and accuse the brethren to each other but they accuse Yahshua to me telling lies about Him and His plan of Salvation. It's my own fault because I started doubting His goodness and questioning why there was so much poverty and racism in the world why humans had to go to hell. Now I know and remember He came to save us from hell and we are sending ourselves there. When I'm truly in His presence all my questions just die just fade away and so does this relentless tormenting desire to smoke. Hope you don't mind me taking up your comment boxes just want to use this chance to testify as I am coming to the end of my rebirth process in case anyone else is experiencing similar one day and needs a word of encouragement. You can get through it, with Yah everything is possible and nothing is impossible.

Every scar tells a story

August 27, 2022 by Michelle   Comments (23)

Every scar has a story.
What will mine tell?
What will come of this
when I&.rsquo.m better, when I&.rsquo.m well?

I want my scar to tell
of how I& overcome,
of how I made it through,
of where I have come from.

I want my scar to whisper
about the pain I faced,
about this very hard time,
about the marathon I raced.

But mostly I want my scar
to speak of something greater
I want it to shout
about my living Creator.

Let my scar be evidence
that there is a loving Lord
who fought my scary battles
and on whose wings I soared.

Let my scar proclaim
that all things work for good,
that by myself I couldn&.rsquo.t
but with my God I could.

Let them take a look.
Let them peek and see.
My scar shows God is great.
It points to Him, not me.

~~~ Kristina M. DeCarlo


just chucked my tobacco out, it is giving demons legal rights over me and Yahshua wants me to fight back not to get destroyed by them. .

I am progressing well with the battle against 'mental illness' copy of a email and latest prayer request to remember when I forget to trust Yah and remember all the good things He has done for me

August 22, 2022 by Michelle   Comments (26)

 ..Your letter came at just the right time, I was considering opening a tin of food but this gave me the strength to Persevere like in your former Word of Knowledge for me. I prayed for your niece ..and I will pray again later, just gonna read some scripture now. I saw a video years ago of a girl who was tight with Messiah and He spoke to her, she done a 40 day fast and when she got hungry He told her to feed on scripture. I read for about 2 and a half hours altogether yesterday and it helped. I have been guided to withdraw more from the little time I spend not alone and just to be alone for a week or two so I can get prepared for revival. From what I hear in a real revival the glory of Adonai can fall and convict terribly of sin and it can be quite traumatic though ultimately as we know - All things turn to good for those who love Yah, who are the called according to His purpose. .. I think maybe the separate the chaff from the wheat is an encouragement to continue hardcore the Battle of the flesh and mind/thoughts. I saw a video that said about the wheat and the tares. The tares are the children of the wicked one as we know but there is also an inner meaning, I am the wheat and the tares are the evil thoughts which no longer belong in a child of Yah who has been chastised to have her wrong thinking and blasphemy corrected. Remember Paul was told to hand i think it was 2 people over to satan for blasphemy but it wasn't permenant. Like David used to pray to be delivered from men of the sword who are Yah's sword, so I pray to be delivered from the chastisement and acknowledge that it is Yah in charge, orcerstrating it and it is for my own good. Like Psalms say blessed is the man whom thou chastened and do not despise the chastening of Adonai. at the end of the day no matter who satan seems to think he is he is just Yah's puppet lol. So it's also a confirmation of warnings of what will happen if I don't persevere. yah has more than proven His love for me lately and I have to try and remember those times and not let the temporary darkness overwhelm me. The main reason the older generation of Jews were destroyed in the wilderness was for the sin of the 10 spies, their constant complaining and doubting Yah and wanting to go back to Egypt to bondage when He had more than proved His love for them and His power to defeat their enemies. I am quite pleased, reasonably pleased with fasting - I am on day 5 but I am still drinking coffee coke and juice I want to try to get a couple of days water fasting in. Not sure when I will stop probably when I give up smoking. I am up and down on smoking some days more some days less but still Yahshua is with me often Praise Him for His mercy and grace. I am doing better with the thoughts. Please continue to pray for fasting I can not ask too many people as we are told to do it in secret but He knows I am weak in that area and need support so Im hoping its ok to tell a couple people who can help pray me through it and then I just put it as unspoken on CBN. yeah another video said the tares are the seeds the thoughts that the wicked one sows in the minds and hearts of the children of Yah and we have to continually uproot them so we won't be overwhelmed and get stockholm syndrome and think we are actually children of the wicked one. .. I have been seeing on youTube and feeling it to stock up on food for a fair few weeks so I finally did in case of another lockdown for covid variants or monkey disease or food shortages and inflation. We know when the black horse rides completely it will be more famines and a loaf of bread will cost a full days wages. I am saying Psalm 23 everyday usually when I take communion. I saw a video about a prophet saying we are going through the plagues of Egypt again, the last one was the death of the first born starting, that there was a fad on facebook a while ago to post pictures of the firstborn child. So I am covering myself with the blood of the Lamb Yashua and remembering how the children of Yisrael covered their doors with the blood of the first passover lamb and the death angel overflew their houses


I have hardly been sleeping, only a couple of hours a night with a couple of 30 minute naps in the day usually, I am getting a bit grumpy and tired really would like to sleep more. At the same time I am grateful I am not still so depressed as when I was just trying to spend all my time sleeping.
Please pray for peace of mind and that I am able to control my thoughts like 2 Corinthians 10.5 tells us - Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalts itself above the knowledge of Yah, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Messiah. I was once diagnosed with schitzophrenia, Yahshua has healed me a lot and I am trying to reject these man made demonic inspired labels of mental illness and keep trusting in Him to help me and it is working although it is very time consuming. I had an appointment with my psychiatrist, nurse, support worker and my daughter was there too, it was a web appointment and the psychiatrist agreed I can come of my injection for schitzo-affective disorder which is schitzophrenia with bi-polar, which is very good news and means I am progressing in their eyes as well as more importantly in Yah's eyes. I agree somewhat there might be sound reasoning in how they say it is a chemical inbalance but it is also clearly demonic oppression, Yahshua cast out demons with His Word and Power, He did not prescribe drugs. I am to go on tablets which should not be as heavy, soul numbing and should have less side effects, so Praise Elohim and thank you all for prayers. By Yah's grace I have overcome much of the demonic affliction but I still get a lot of voices hating on me and hating on Yah and blaspheming Him but I am finding it easier to cope so please pray for continued peace of mind. The Biblical Peace/Shalom that surpasses all understanding. I pray that I am able to get a deeper sense that the eternal life which is soon to come is much more important than temporary pleasures of life now like smoking which put in jeopardy the destination of my eternal soul. Also one unspoken. Thanks so much for praying, may Elohim bless you all and draw you nearer to Him these End Times.

Did Yahshua/Jesus tell Christians to keep the Mosaic Laws

August 9, 2022 by Michelle   Comments (30)

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it is a good time to bring this up that Messiah Yahshua told us to keep the Mosiac Laws. I know they cannot save us that salvation is by grace through faith and not works so no man should boast. Like Apostle Paul said Galatians 2:21 - I do not frustrate the Grace of Elohim. For if righteousness comes by the law, then Christ is dead in vain, but he also said he delights in the law after the inner man. But Messiah definetely said these two things. Matthew 5:17 - Think not that I AM come to destroy the law, or the Prophets. I AM not come to destroy, but to fulfill. 5:18 - For verily I say unto you - Til heaven and earth pass, one jot or one title shall in no wise pass from the law, til all be fulfilled. And also - Matthew 23:2 - Yahshua said - The scribes and the Pharisees sit in Mose's seat. Matthew 23:3 - All therefore they ...... bid you observe, that observe and do, but do not ye after their works for they say, and do not.

just one more scripture about when Yahshua returns what He will say to those who did not try to keep Torah. It is the death penalty of the law that is nailed to the cross not the actual law as far as I currently understand. Luke 13:27 - But He shall say, I tell you, ....... I know you not whence ye are, depart from me all ye workers of iniquity. Some translations say workers of lawlessness. .......
10 commandments were written in stone and have not been done away with. The command that so many churches and Christians are breaking these end days is the 4th commandment which is:

4 - "Remember the Sabbath day ( Friday sundown to an hour after Saturday sundown) by keeping it holy. Six days you shall labour and do all your work, but the seventh day is a sabbath to the Lord your God. On it you shall not do any work, neither you, nor your son or daughter, nor your male or female servant, nor your animals, nor any foreigner residing in your towns. For in six days the Lord made the heavens and the earth, the sea, and all that is in them, but he rested on the seventh day. Therefore the Lord blessed the Sabbath day and made it holy.

Jesus said in Matthew 5.17 - Think not that I am come to destroy the law, or the prophets: I have not come to destroy, but to fulfill.
5.18 - For verily I say unto you - Til heaven and earth pass, one jot or one tittle shall in no way pass from the law, til all of it be fulfilled.

Yashua and the disciples kept the Sabbath as well and we are suppossed to be walking in their footsteps. Please read Matthew 28.1 where Mary Magdalene keeps the Sabbath after Christ's death.

1st John 3.4 - whosoever commits sin trangress also the law for sin is the transgression of the law.

Not every one that said to Me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the kingdom of heaven. but he that does the will of My Father which is in heaven. Many will say to Me in that day, Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in Your name? and in Your name have cast out devils? and in Your name done many wonderful works? And then will I profess to them, I never knew you: depart from Me, you that work iniquity&......rdquo. (Mat 7:21&......ndash.23).


Revelation 14:12 - Here is the patience of the qodeshiym, here are they that guard the commandments of Elohiym, and the faith of Yahusha. ......


Isaiah 2.3 - .....Many peoples will come and say, &....ldquo.Come, let us go up to the mountain of the LORD, to the temple of the God of Jacob. He will teach us his ways, so that we may walk in his paths.&....rdquo. The law will go out from Zion, the word of the LORD from Jerusalem.


So after Messiah returns the LAW, the Torah will go forth out of Zion and He will teach us His ways and we will walk in His paths. Surely it is better to start obeying His Law now like He commanded while He walked on earth! .....


Romans 10:4 For Messiah is the goal*1* of the Torah Law for righteousness to every one that believeth. 5 For Moshe describeth the righteousness which is of the Torah Law, That the man which doeth those things shall live by them. 6 But the righteousness which is of faith speaketh on this wise, Say not in thine heart, Who shall ascend into heaven? (that is, to bring Messiah down from above:)

*1*The Torah law is not done away with! KJV says "end", but the original Greek and Aramaic (Peshitta) text clearly shows that "goal" is a better interpretation. G5056 &..tau.έ&..lambda.&..omicron.&..sigmaf. telos From a primary tello (to set out for a definite point or goal). Look up the word "end" in original Greek ... ...Look at the original Greek ... ...Common English Bible (CEB) &... מה Cepher &... Hebraic Roots Bible etc. confirms this. Heaven and Earth have not passed so the Torah Law remains! Matthew 4:17-20 Narrow is the Path that leads to life Matthew 7:13-14! The Messiah said he follows the Father. John 6:38 The Messiah did not do away with the Fathers Law. Do you think that the Father wishes to do away with His own Law and follow the Serpent? Christian churches preach and teach falsely that the Torah law is done away with! The sacrifice is done away with for the Messiah fulfilled that part! Circumcision is now optional. There is no "Old and New Testament", there is only ONE Testament, the whole scripture! Adam also was to teach the law but failed. The Messiah showed how to follow the Law and is a good goal to pick up the cross and follow Him, the Messiah who follows the Father and His Torah Law, to the best of your abilities. Follow the Messiah and Father who are ONE ahcad (echad) and NOT Paul (who confuses many)! Come out of the Babylonian churches that preach the law is done away with Revelation 18:4! We are to pick up the cross and follow Him, by following the Fathers Torah Law just as He did Matthew 16:24.
that's from here, it also has lots about Creator's true Name Ahayah Asher Ahayah I Am that I AMgiven to Moses in Exodus
scriptures from the end of the book of Isaiah about when the LORD comes to judge by fire and with HIS sword - ..
Isaiah 66.17 - They that sanctify themselves, and purify themselves in the gardens behind one tree in the midst, eating SWINE's flesh, and the abomination, and the mouse, shall be consumed together, saith the LORD. ..
Isaiah 66.23 - And it shall come to pass, that from one new moon to another, and from one sabbath to another, shall all flesh come to worship before me, says the LORD. ..
1st John 5.3 - For this is the love of Elohim, that we keep His Commandments. and His commandments are not grevious

warnings and promises from Yah about trying yet again to give up the idolatry of smoking tobacco

June 27, 2022 by Michelle   Comments (17)

His Direction

My Daughter,

Many times your ways may appear to be better than Mine, at least in your own mind. What I ask may at times feel uncomfortable or sacrificial, but I would rather you be in discomfort than experience the destruction of living your own way. I&.rsquo.m asking you to trust Me, even when it&.rsquo.s hard to do what I ask of you. When you obey, honor, and respect Me as your heavenly Father, I will give you so much more than what you willingly give up for Me. In the end, you will stay strong in your faith, and your heart will remain at peace regardless of any trials this life brings. My ways are not your ways, My beloved. They are higher and they are greater. My rules are effective, but they are not easy. It is in your righteous discomfort that you will remain safe and secure under My wing.

Your God of comfort

Pride goes before destruction,
and haughtiness before a fall. - ..Proverbs 16:18

Treasure of Truth

Discomfort is far better than destruction.

Sheri Rose ..



Apprehended By God

If that I may apprehend that for which also I am apprehended. .PHILIPPIANS 3:12


Never choose to be a worker. but when once God has put His call on you, woe be to you if you turn to the right hand or to the left. We are not here to work for God because we have chosen to do so, but because God has apprehended us. There is never any thought of &mdash. &ldquo.Oh, well, I am not fitted for this.&rdquo. What you are to preach is determined by God, not by your own natural inclinations. Keep your soul steadfastly related to God, and remember that you are called not to bear testimony only, but to preach the gospel. Every Christian must testify, but when it comes to the call to preach, there must be the agonizing grip of God&rsquo.s hand on you, your life is in the grip of God for that one thing. How many of us are held like that?

Never water down the word of God, preach it in its undiluted sternness. there must be unflinching loyalty to the word of God. but when you come to personal dealing with your fellow men, remember who you are &mdash. not a special being made up in heaven, but a sinner saved by grace.

&ldquo.I count not myself to have apprehended: but .this one thing I do.&hellip.&rdquo.


Bible in One Year: .Job 11-13. Acts 9:1-21



Sincerity means that the appearance and the reality are exactly the same.

A wounded spirit transformed

March 8, 2022 by Michelle   Comments (15)

A wounded spirit, God wants to mend
To bring healing and wholeness once again

Where there's brokenness, God gives new hope
And waters our souls to bring new growth

When we have no one, He calls us His friend
And forgives our sins, so we're not condemned

His love goes deep and covers our sin,
So His light may shine brightly within

Dispelling darkness and deep despair,
His love is constant and always near

The cleansing streams of God's sweet grace
Washes over us as we embrace

His holy word that came to life
In the person of His Son, Jesus Christ,

Who brings to us life, hope and love
And eternal blessings from His throne above

I could never want anything more
Than forgiveness and healing from my Lord

For we shall not stay wounded or dismayed,
But be transformed by the word He gave

And with His spirit sent to comfort us,
We shall emerge with faith, hope and love.

~~~ M. S. Lowndes

scary news reports about End Times praying Christians wake up

February 25, 2022 by Michelle   Comments (16) This video from December highlights a number of serious news reports and gives the link to them. In Sweden and other countries people have been implanted with microchip vaccine passports. There was a post today on CBN about a woman who wanted to get out of NY because they have a concentration camp there ready to put Christians and dissidents and others who refuse this vaccine, it is NOT even a vaccine, they had to change the definition of the word vaccine to be able to call it that. NY has passed or is passing a law to say people can be held indefinetely who won't comply. Also some people in the USA army calling for war games to prepare for Civil War and other issues very worthy of your time. Remember trust in Jesus - He said whoever endures to the end will be saved. I believe in a rapture but not sure if it is pre tribulation, mid tribulation or post tribulation. Let's pray for more revelation and for the Holy Spirit to guide us as what is best to do. In Jesus Name, Amen

the man in the glory - reminder the 3rd one that He is knocking at the door and I have to hurry up and open it

February 12, 2022 by Michelle   Comments (36)

The Man in the Glory
...the man Christ Jesus. 1 Timothy 2:5
I wake in the morning with thoughts of His love
Who is living for me in the glory above,
Ev'ry minute expecting He'll call me away,
And that keeps me bright all the rest of the day.

But the moments speed forward, and on comes the noon
Yet still I am singing: "He'll come very soon."
And thus I am watching from morning till night
And pluming my wings to be ready for flight.

There's a Man in the glory I know very well
I have known Him for years, and His goodness can tell:
One day in His mercy He knock'd at my door,
And seeking admission, knock'd many times o'er.

But when I went to Him, and stood face to face,
And listen'd awhile to His story of grace,
How He suffer' d for sinners, and put away sin,
I heartily, thankfully welcomed Him in.

We have lived on together a number of years,
And that's why I neither have doubtings nor fears,
For my sins are all hid in the depths of the sea,
They were carried down there by the Man on the tree.

I am often surprised why the lip should be curl'd,
When I speak of my Lord to the man of the world.
And notice with sorrow his look of disdain,
When I tell him that Jesus is coming again.

He seems so content with his houses and gold,
While despising the ark, like the people of old,
And yet at His coming I'm sure he would flee,
Like the man in the garden, who ate of the tree.

I cannot but think it is foolish of souls
To put all their money "in bags which have holes",
To find in the day that is coming apace,
How lightly they valued the "riches of grace".

As fond as I am of His work in the field,
I would let go the plough, I would lay down the shield:
The weapons of service I'd put on the shelf,
And the sword in its scabbard, to be with Himself.

But I'll work on with pleasure, while keeping my eyes
On the end of the field where standeth the prize.
I would work for His glory, that when we shall meet
I may have a large sheaf to lay down at His feet.

That He too, with pleasure His fruit may review:
Is the Man in the glory a stranger to you?
A stranger to Jesus, what, do you know
He is washing poor sinners much whiter than snow?

Have you lived in a land where the Bible's unknown,
That you don't know the Man who is now on the throne?
Ah, did you but know half His beauty and power
You would not be a stranger another half&.ndash.hour.

I have known Him so long that I'm able to say,
The very worst sinner He'll not turn away.
The question of sin, I adoringly see,
The Man in the glory has settled for me.

And as to my footsteps whatever the scene,
The Man in the glory is keeping me clean.
And therefore I'm singing from morning till night
The Man in the glory is all my delight.
~~~ George Cutting

lusts of the flesh

December 2, 2021 by Michelle   Comments (29)

friday 3rd dec 4.10am. . .


I am still having trouble overcoming the lusts of the flesh. I didn't get up at 2.40am when the alarm went off to pray at 3am but just turned it off was so tired. Just got up about 10 minutes ago and as soon as i got up i had half a tin of veg soup and a quarter of a slice of bread with a little bit of cheese. Then i found two rizlas and went to my neighbours garden and got some butts out of her astry and made a roll up. It's always hardest when I wake up. That means i only fasted for about 30 hours but i think i will try not to eat any more. .


LListening to the watchman the red horse of war is about to ride, I was so upset i made a nasty comment saying - why is God doing all this He sounds like a terrorist. No matter how hard i try i just cant get over my double mindedness. I dont want to go back to when i was hating God half the time but i just cant get my head around predestination. If he chose a few people from before the start of the world to be written in the book of life but not most of the people why did he create the rest of the people just for them to definetely go to hell it just seems so evil. I cant believe that at this time last year during Channakah i was so in love with Jesus and felt His presence for a few days and gave up smoking for 5 days. I feel like im going to have a schitzophrenic attack again from believing two different things. Im gonna pray now i dont know why